Melodi Leonhardt

Can't Handle Craziness Gonna End Up Alone and It's Ok



Posted: Tuesday, January 31, 2012

by Melodi Leonhardt

I sit here and ponder all the relationship mistakes I have made and have begun to realize I will probably be alone for the rest of my life.

Recently I met a guy (not gonna call him a man) who I thought was gonna be great.

He prays on his knees every night and reads the Bible everyday, yet watches porn, lies, cheats, steals,and is the most using and selfish, self serving human I have ever met. Wow was I mistaken, but I really thought this guy was gonna be a God SEND  HAHA!! SATAN MAYBE.

He tries the 'You are controlling' bs, yet I paid all the bills and he drove a car I was paying on with gas I paid for and had my bank card and went to town almost daily, by himself and golfing and fishing, had beer daily, broke every promise he ever made to get me to stay or come back, and never had a kind word for me, yelled and had temper tantrums daily, at the same time calling me a psycho, while I stayed in the room by myself.

Really are you serious??

I give and give and apparently because I want some human attention I want too much. I do not want diamonds, I hate flowers, I just want to be held and cuddled with. Guess that is asking too much.

And they say women always want the big 'M' but every man I have been with bring it up including the last crazy man. really?

Yes, I am independent and yes, I raised my children alone and went to nursing school, and yes I do not need a man to support me, but would love one to hold me.

And yes my children will always have a big place in my heart and life and yes I will help them when they need it, because that is who I am .

So I guess its me and my teddy bears and DVR for the rest of what time I have on this earth.

As the saying goes 'if you can't handle me in my worst , you do not deserve me in my best.

God bless

Melodi
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